Throwback Thursday: My life on drugs. Let’s talk about our past for a second. Let’s talk about the fact that is does not define you. That if it doesn’t kill you (where in my experience it almost did) it makes you stronger. I have to be gentle with myself. I have to remember how far I’ve come crawling out from the gutters of literal hell. Sometimes it fees like LIFETIMES ago. To look back at the girl I used to be. A shell of a human, no self confidence or self esteem. Filling up my days with booze, clubs and bars because I had nothing to live for.
Before finding my way to Beachbody, health and actively drinking and drugging on a daily basis.
I realized one night in a fury of alcohol induced rage that I was REALLY good at drinking. It was time I applied myself to be REALLY good at LIVING or I wouldn’t have much to show myself in the years to come. It didn’t happen over night. It took 2,383 days of not picking up a drink or a drug. Asking for LOTS of help. Being teachable and willing to learn. Being hungry for a life that amounted to something. Lots of humility. Lots of self acceptance, forgiveness and discovery. My past does not define me but it is who has molded me into what I am today and I am proud of it! I also have lots of crazy stories to tell…
Me TODAY. 6 years sober and TOP 10 coach.
Nice ….cant wait to get sober … good story I hope one day I can be sober
Amy, your appearance and smile was what had drawn me to you but since getting to know more about you and your journey and now having you as my coch and becoming a coach within SYSOF I believe that I was meant to know you. I suffered for a decade with addiction, heroin controlled my life for years, I felt weak, worthless and hopeless. My struggles in my past have helped make me the person I am today and led me to yoga, Bhakti, devotion, health and wellness…. I dont regret any of it. Thank you for sharing your story, I have spent years hiding my past addiction with everyone, my yoga students, my yoga community, and friends worried that I would be judged and looked at differently, I am now getting to a place in my life where I feel I should share my story with others, if i can help one person feel a little hope and know that recovery is possible, every tear and ounce of pain will have been worth it. with graditude I say keep shining your light.
I just got back from summit and recently started following you on FB and came across your website. from the get go I loved the vibe you give and what you stand for, and perhaps it is in part because you remind me of me. Congrats on the 6 years clean time. It’s been 6 for me as well. I became a coach 10 months ago and am still in the pricess of healing and recovering from the damage I did to myself physically and more importantly emotionally. Thanks for being a unique beam of light and hope and being proof that it is possible to find a place in this business while being 100% authentic, apologetically you, and be successful all at the same time.
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Since starting 21 day fix, I am 19 days Sober!!! Can’t believe it. Also free from caffeine!! I was the one with the drink in hand all the time or a coffee at all times of the day. I am excited to grow as a person and be as strong as your one day.